Edge & Pearl

"Be my prize, don’t go, don’t leave my eyes
Only for tonight
Give me life, hold on, don’t close your eyes
Not before tonight"


When I started walking home I suddenly came to realize a rather unsettling feeling. After a little while I identified it partly as fear and partly as sadness. At first I thought it was because of the book I was reading, I get into the books i read quite a lot. Feeling sadness and fear because of the actions and decitions of Horus, seeing him decend to such a low level and tarnish the honour of his sons, willing to sacrifice some of his most loyal Astartes to save himself. But after some moments of reflection I realized that was not the case. With every step I took these feelingsgrew even stronger and there was no doubt why...
It fells as Im walking further away from everybody I love, my family, friends and brothers. Does it matter that im doing what I want when I cant be around the people I want to be around?
I miss them all so very very much, even tho it wasnt very long since I met them all.
To be honest I felt the need to talk to someone about this, but I soon dismissed the thought, realizing that I have no one to call... not at this hour anyway.
So I wrote this in a, as I believed, vain attempt to ease this pain. To my surprise it actually worked a little.